I wanted to feel less. To not be burdened by emotion, To not feel sadness, To not know loss. I envied the inanimate, The trees that stand proudly in winter, Not missing their leaves. I wanted to be weightless, To not experience limitation. I didn’t want time to pass, The blur of days, months, years. … Continue reading Empty Spaces

“I have lived in the shadow of loss—the kind of loss that can paralyze you forever. I have grieved like a professional mourner—in every waking moment, draining every ounce of my life force. I died—without leaving my body. But I came back, and now it’s your turn. I have learned to remember my past—without living … Continue reading Second Firsts

“Grief is subversive, undermining the quiet agreement to behave and be in control of our emotions. It is an act of protest that declares our refusal to live numb and small. There is something feral about grief, something essentially outside the ordained and sanctioned behaviors of our culture. Because of that, grief is necessary to … Continue reading Grief is Subversive

For those of us who have ever walked through the Valley of the death of a loved one, we may feel after the first few months, that we can begin to move on with our feelings and emotions. However, we soon find ourselves grieving as we did before because the feelings are still present in … Continue reading The Loss

He is not here: he has risen! Remember how he told you, while he was still with you in Galilee. (Luke 24:6)

We all would love to find Peace and remain in its very essence. For those who have found it and live daily, it is something they would never want to live without. Even if a person is filled with peace, they may still be overcome with emotions of grief. The many time's overwhelming emotions occur … Continue reading Finding Peace